Once again, depression and anxiety have taken me captive.
It haunts me, it follows me, it hunts me. Always present, just lurking in the shadows for the opportune time to take me down.
So now I'm here again. I feel exactly like David in the Psalms:
Rescue me from the mire, do not let me sink; Do not let the flood waters engulf me or the depths swallow me up or the pit close its mouth over me. Answer me, O Lord, out of the goodness of your love; in your great mercy turn to me. Do not hide your face from your servant; answer me quickly for I am in trouble. Psalm 69:14-17
I'm missing work again. It's been an incredibly difficult year for me. Part of being overwhelmed by the depression is my loss of words. It's difficult to talk as thoughts and emotions are so jumbled up in my head. A difficult problem to have when my job is greeting visitors, answering phones and helping students. Monday I only made it about 3 hours before I just couldn't do it anymore. I hardly even have words for my family.
I appreciate any prayers you would like to lift up on my behalf. My Savior has me in the palm of his hand. And I wait on His timing to break me free of the heavy chains of my depression.