Thursday, October 8, 2015

Recovery is Hard

I'm feeling discouraged today.  Recovery and healing are hard and slow.  I've been to so many doctor's appointments over the last 6 months, I've lost count.

I'm sitting at my computer trying to read some of your wonderful blog posts, and I can't concentrate to finish most that are more than a few paragraphs long.  Tuesday I go to another appointment, this one to test for ADHD and Sensory Processing Disorder.

ADHD would have never even been in my vocabulary until recently when the possibility was brought to my attention by my psychiatrist.  Now I see it in several areas of life, when I'm impatient, when I interrupt someone speaking, when I can't read a blog post to the end, when my computer is being slow, when I can't watch a TV program without getting up and wondering around.  So I think it might be a real possibility.

So today I am trying to not be too hard on myself that I can't seem to get anything accomplished.  It's just one of those days.

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

Prone to Love, Part 2

I talked the other day about a book I am reading called "Prone to Love" by Jason Clark.  It is a fantastic book about the love of God.  I've gotten even deeper into it, and am loving it all the more.

I grew up in a Christian home, so the idea of the Father's love is not new to me, but Jason has brought it around in a different way and has made me see the Father's love in a whole new light.  Each of us have someone in our lives that represents the unconditional love that we all crave.  It could be your mother or father, a spouse, or a sibling.  These are the people in our lives that love us no matter what, the people who will never turn their back on us.  The people who forgive ever mistake, who are awake in the middle of the night with you, who know you intimately, and love you anyway.  And that is God's love.

When I think of God loving me in earthy terms, like the way my Husband loves me through no matter what I throw at him, I have an entirely different picture of how the Father loves me.  Somehow putting it in earthly terms make me realize even more than before how deep His love is for me.  My husband has seen me at my best and at my worst and loves me anyway.  He loves me at my very ugliest, weakest, most vulnerable moments.  And so does my Heavenly Father; even more.

It's difficult to fathom, this heavenly love.  Paul tries to describe it in Ephesians 3 when he says "to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge.."  He was trying to describe the indescribable: "bigger than forever, longer than eternity, higher than a million, billion and deeper than infinity times a hundred." says Clark.  Indescribable; no words can make us understand.  It is immeasurable by human standards.

Once we grasp this truth, that we can't possible comprehend how much the Father loves, then we can begin to realize that LOVE is the commodity of heaven.  Clark states, "While earth revolves around the reality of need, heaven exists in the revelation of love.  Need doesn't exist in heaven."

Need doesn't exist in heaven.  Let that sink in for a moment.  Remember in Revelation when we are told there will be no more pain, no more tears, no more death.  Need doesn't exist, only the LOVE of God.  wow.

So Jason's challenge is to live in the reality that heaven is full of limitless resources, available to us through prayer.  There are no limits on His love, generosity, mercy, grace, healing, hope and life. NO LIMIT.  We never use it all up.  He constantly has more to give, because he LOVES.  All of heaven is LOVE.

Have I confined my prayers to a limited God or a limitless God?  Have I contained my God by restraining Him to my earthly measurements?
"When we see our Father and become sure in His love, all impossibilities become possibilities - it's called heaven on earth."  ~Jason Clark
I'm sure you've heard this statement:  What we believe determines how we live.  So why don't we learn a new Love Language, straight from heaven.  Let's realize again, or maybe for the first time that God's love is measureless perfection.   Because if we believe that the Father is always good and is always love, then we can begin to live like it!

I don't know about you, but I have been challenged and I've only read half the book!  I will have one more installment on this book in the coming weeks.  Be sure to watch for it!

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Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Our Fall Mantel

Fall weather is here! This is one of my favorite seasons to decorate, with the bright colors and wonderful smells that come with it.  My house is filled with the scent of cinnamon right now!

Tonight was our first night to turn on the fireplace.  It's a small gas lit fireplace, but it fits this wall perfectly and we really enjoy it.

I've recently discovered that I have a "liking" for small books.  They look adorable up there next to my blue Ball jars.

I picked up this old measuring tape at an auction recently.  I think it adds a little vintage charm to the mix.

One of my favorite features in the living room is this galvanized bucket with pinecones, lights, and birch trees from our cabin in Canada.  I just love the warm glow of the lights in the bucket.

Birch trees are my favorite tree, so my oldest daughter found this light up birch tree and gave it to me for Christmas last year.

We are so incredibly blessed to have the home and family that we do.  God has taken such amazing care of us.  Our home is warm and cozy, a safe haven from the real world.  It is amazing to think that God is preparing a perfect place for us in heaven.

"Do not let your hearts be troubled.  Trust in God; trust also in me.  In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so I would have told you.  I am going there to prepare a place for you.  And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am."  John 14:1-3

My home is my safe place, but Jesus is preparing THE perfect home for us.  I can't wait for our heavenly Welcome Home!

Monday, October 5, 2015

Confession: I LOVE Junk!

Yes, it's true.  I love junk.  Junk of all kinds:  rusty, paint chippy, farmhouse, barn, vintage...all of it!  So when someone invites me to go through their Mom's house and barn before they put stuff up for sale.....YEEHAW, yes I will be there with bells on and I will bring a friend who loves junk as equally as I do!

We, my junk loving friend and I, spent Sunday afternoon loving every minute of going through a house, garage and yes a barn!

I brought home a few lovely items.  Some I will upcycle and sell, others are way too good and will stay right here at home with me!

The top off of a windmill....squee!!  So excited to find this.  The wheels are turning in this girl's brain as to how to show it off in my back yard!

Oh the possibilities with this beautiful old sled!  This baby will sell quite nicely after I decorate her all up for the holidays.

Who can resist this adorable little piece of luggage.  It needs a little cleaning, but it is a classic!

A copper kettle!  Had to climb into the rafters to retrieve this bad boy!  Oh what a find!

Isn't this little hall table just so sweet.  It will get a treatment of shabby chic love at some point.

A coal bucket and enamel wear.  Two of my favorite things.

This is an old flat box that plants used to be shipped in instead of the plastic ones that we see now.  A good sanding and some beautiful handles will make this a tray to die for!

More rafter climbing was required to retrieve the barn door and this beautiful little enamel table was stored in the barn!  Isn't it cute?

I love old quilts.  This one has been loved beyond it's years and has many a story to tell.  She is a bit tattered but I have her in the gentle cycle of the washing machine right now.  I hope to make some pennant banners from her beauty.

Ahhhh yes.  To actually find blue canning jars being used in an old farmhouse was quite a treat.  Many of them still had food in them!  Aren't these beautiful?

Junking.  It's what I love!

Sunday, October 4, 2015

the 30 Days of Praise Challenge

I want to introduce you to this beautiful little book called "the 30 day praise challenge" by Becky Harling.  It has been such a gift to me.

One of the effects of my anxiety disorder is the inability to tolerate loud noises.  Unfortunately, that includes my home church of 5,000 family.  Lots of people and loud music can set me back for several days, so there are weekends when I must go without church.

On those days I rely on my own praise music to lean in closer to Jesus.  This book has a wonderful praise filled short devotion each day and at the end she has a prayer, a journal prompt and then recommends some praise music to download and enjoy.  I have found some wonderful new music and artists that I had never heard before and I am enjoying them so much.  I created a Praise playlist on my phone that I listen to almost every day and it renews my spirit immediately.
"God is able to meet your deepest longings.  One way to praise Him is by agreeing with Him that you need Him more than anything else in your life."
Go get this book.  I know you will be blessed by it!  How do you praise Him daily?

Saturday, October 3, 2015

Prone to Love; a book about God's Love

We all feel like we are falling at one time or another in our Christian walk.  The depth of our faith determines whether we think God will catch us on the way down.

The last year has been extremely hard on me as I have been fighting a longer bout of anxiety and depression.  You can read more about that here.

I've been reading a book entitled "Prone to Love" by Jason Clark.  His message is that God is love and He is always good.  While I innately believe both of those statements, I have deduced that I am not living those statements.   Jason states,

"When I lean into this faith, when I live expecting His goodness regardless of my circumstances, then my heart is open for an encounter, a revelation, a new experience with the power of His love."

I haven't doubted His love for me, but I have been living a defeated life style, feeling the weight of my current circumstances and allowing that weight to pull me down, away from the presence of God.

But what if we live more expectantly of those moments when we see the Father's love, when we brush up against  His presence,  Those are the moments that can transform our faith and those are the moments that I long for with my Savior.

This book has challenged me to think differently.  I will share more from the book next week.

How about you?  Are you living defeated or expectantly?

Friday, October 2, 2015

Digital Art

I've spent much of the last 6 months or so in a class called AWAKE, which is part of the Photoshop Artistry class by Sebastian Michaels.  It has been absolutely amazing and I have learned so many things about photography, photoshop, and myself!

I thought I would share some art with you today for your enjoyment.  Here are a couple of my favorites.

Believe you can.  Isn't that a message we all need to hear right now as we begin this journey together for 31 days?

This work is entitled Aspen Faerie.

And of course, a monarch butterfly photo.  I spent quite a bit of time raising butterflies this summer.  You can check out that post here.

I'll share some more art with you next Friday!

If you'd like to see more of my digital art and photography, feel free to go view my Facebook page Cherie Froelich Digital Art and Photography.